Jul 22, 2012

The Story of Joe

I'm not much for birth stories.  No, they're just not for me - I remember becoming pregnant for the first time and figuring I'd get hooked on those reality TV shows about giving birth, but after watching the first five minutes, I NEVER did that again - to be honest we dropped out of our pre-natal classes after they showed the first labour and delivery video.

haha! *sigh*

Sooo, I'm not going to entertain you here with a lengthy birth story - what I am going to talk about is the events that lead up to my pregnancy with Joseph ....no not those events....but the ways the Lord worked in our lives before becoming pregnant with our newest blessing.

We had our eldest daughter, Olivia, in 2007, three years after getting married.  Our second daughter was born 20 months later, on the first day of Spring in 2009.  We didn't exactly plan on them being so close as we have little control over the timing of these things.  But God knows best and though things were challenging in those early years, I find now that it is great that they are close in age!

My cycle has always been completely irregular and crazy.  We were told, about a year prior to conceiving our eldest that we might not even be able to have children due to the strange characteristics of my cycle.  Anyways - with my cycle as crazy as it is and only just having our second baby, we were greatly surprised when we discovered we were pregnant a third time - only four short months after the birth of our second.

We were happy, shocked, but happy.  I had my doubts though.  I was concerned about how we would cope with three kids under three?  My selfish flesh cried out, "What about my 'Me' time?"  Concerns for my heath arose as I had just had my second cesarean and it would only be a year until this next child would be born.  But a part of me knew God had this, He had us in His hands and He had control of this pregnancy.

It was also that when I rested in Him that I knew something wasn't right.

We hadn't told anyone yet, we wanted to "wait the three months" before telling anyone - so we had no one to watch the girls when I went for the dating ultrasound.  We didn't say it to each other but both of us felt uneasy.  I walked to the hospital, only a few short blocks away and waited for the scan.

Meeting with the friendly technician, I still didn't feel at ease.  And then those heart breaking words came, "I'm sorry, there is no heart beat."

My husband had decided to put the kids in the stroller to meet me on my walk home - I met them just as they were leaving the house.  Our eyes met and he knew.  He had felt the uneasiness too and he knew with one look at me that we were not to be blessed with the birth of this baby.
After this loss we became a bit scared.  Scared to become pregnant again, scared to lose another little one - we knew God had a plan and a purpose but the hurt and fear took over our thoughts and choices.  Taking control over this area of our lives we postponed the idea of any more kids for some time.

But over the next year my husband and I began to take a hard look at our lives under God. We had spent a few years trying to get to where we should be and trying under our own strength to follow God's ways. After many failed attempts we began to realize more and more that we need to fully put our lives in God's hands, giving Him everything and every area. We needed to not rely on our own ideas, strength or works to be what God wanted us to be but that we needed to follow after God in all ways, pray for His guidance and leading and live lives that were pleasing to Him based on His Word.

In 2011 we were baptised and shortly thereafter, we again reviewed our lives under God. Checking in to see how we measured up to His Word and His standards. One realization that we came to was the we still retained control over our choices in regards to children.  We had been hurt and so afraid that we had forgotten that we had taken control of this whole area and pushed aside God and had taken no regard for God's word, perspective and His calling on our hearts.

We not only took a long hard look at our control over how many and how often in regards to having kids but we also looked at how we loved, nurtured and cared for the two we had already been blessed with.

We dearly loved our daughters but did we love them as God wanted us to? Did we truly see them as blessings from God? We had been trying to have another child for some time now but so far had been not blessed with such joy. It was through this struggle and by the Grace of God we realized that we retained too much control over this entire area.

After much prayer and seeking out the Lord my husband and I got down on our knees one night, we repented and we prayed to the Lord. We repented for keeping 'control' in regards to children. We repented for not seeing the two amazing blessings that we already had as just that - AMAZING BLESSINGS! We prayed that God would change our hearts, that He would help us to let our children know they are gifts from God and that if it be in His will, that He would bless us with as many children as He wanted for us.

We knew that we were more then blessed with two beautiful and lovely daughters and that if they were all God gave us, then we were still richly blessed by Him. 

The next four months brought some strange occurrences - the strangest being my cycle, it became regular! I had four 30 day cycles - the first in my life!  I couldn't believe it and just as I was anticipating my next, 'regular cycle' they stopped.  I did not think much of it at first until I began to notice some changes in me. Hoping and not believing I took a pregnancy test.

It was negative.

I was upset but knew God was in control but with doubt clouding me - I chalked up the whole 'regulated' cycle to fluke.  I mean, yes God can do anything but really...regulating a woman's cycle...?

Anyways a few more weeks passed and still no cycle in sight and these strangely familiar symptoms continuing - I again took another pregnancy test.

Again, negative.

We decided to stop torturing ourselves and just let the whole issue go. After all we had given it all over to God months ago so why worry about it now.  But after six weeks of my 'strangely familiar symptoms' increasing, now to the point my husband was mighty convinced - we bought one more pregnancy test.

Third time's the charm.


We were over-joyed!  And from the get go we knew it was going to be a son!  God had been showing my husband, over and over again, in His word that those who turn back to God and keep His commandments will be blessed with sons. 

We didn't even consider any girl names!


So at this point I was going to type out a brief overview of Joseph's birth - but like I stated at the beginning - that's just not me.  What I will say is that I did not have the VBAC I had intended on having.  I laboured for two days but in the end, well apparently, my babies do not want to leave the comfy home my body creates for them.  So after two days of labouring, my contractions growing until they were each a minute apart and I being 8 cm dilated - this little man was not descending and had not engaged.  We had to make a choice - continue and hopes he descends or go for a section and get him out.

With much prayer we made the choice to have a section.

Later we learned it was the right choice and that for any subsequent babies a c-section is my only option.  The section went amazingly and he was born healthy and well as happy as a baby can be I guess.  ;)

So we have come a long road with our little blessings.  We are a bit nervous about what the future holds but we do know that God is with us, He will bless us as He sees fit, He cares for us and these children more then we can ever imagine and that He has already blessed us with more them we could ever hope for.

Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
Psalm 36:5

PS- These posts take way longer to type one handed!  But I love me some baby snuggles! ;)

Jul 2, 2012

Well hello, Little baby.

Press play and enjoy the visual montage of our sweet baby boy!

I Get To Be The One by JJ Heller on Grooveshark

Joseph Mario Andrews
Born- June 20
8 pounds 9 ounces
23 inches

Well hello,
Little baby.
Your eyes have never seen the sun

You should know
Little baby
That I am the lucky one

I get to be the one to hold your hand
I get to be the one.

Through birthdays and broken bones
I'll be there to watch you grow
I get to be the one.

Don't feel alone now,
Little baby.
Do you hear me singing you a song

I can't wait to show you
Little baby

How to crawl
How to walk
And how to run

I get to be the one to hold your hand
I get to be the one.
Through birthdays and broken bones
I'll be there to watch you grow
I get to be the one.

How does someone so small
Hold my heart so tightly

I don't even know you
I love you completely

I get to be the one to hold your hand
I get to be the one.

Through birthdays and broken bones
I'll be there to watch you grow
I get to be the one to hold your hand
I get to be the one.

Through birthdays and broken bones
I'll be there to watch you grow
I get to be the one.

I Get To Be The One
by JJ Heller

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Psalm 127:3



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